When I decided to create this blog, I had been contemplating some issues about life and choices…and how sometimes we end up accidentally in one place or another, either because we made a choice that had these results, or perhaps because we didn’t make a choice…and life just happened to us. Serendipitously.
In working with dysfunctional families as a social worker (for three decades!), I saw many of my clients making “choices” in this way. Just allowing things to happen to them.
I also recalled how I sometimes made a choice and wound up facing unexpected consequences. So I thought…what if I created characters out of these ideas, and spotlighted ways in which they found themselves inexplicably in one place or another because of choice? An accidental choice.
So my first published novel came about.
However, this particular blog is not just about that first novel. It encompasses the issues of choice, accidental moments, consequences, and how to live with these events.
In this excerpt from the book, we see our primary character, Karin Larson, contemplating these very issues.
Once upon a time, Karin Larson had believed in endless possibilities. In her childhood, all the adults had asked her the same question: What do you want to be when you grow up? Picturing a giant list from which she could choose, Karin had played with the task, picking out one thing or another, while watching the reaction of the grownups to help her know if her choices were right or wrong.
Much later, Karin had come to realize that selecting one thing meant giving up something else. A possibility lost…perhaps forever. Sometimes, not making any choice at all was just a different way of choosing.
Karin often wondered about those alternate paths. As a single mother and a social worker for the past fourteen years, she was a responsible and professional person. She had achieved some expertise in her field. On the surface, an observer might see her as a calm, reasonably attractive woman in her mid-to-late thirties.
So why did she wake up every morning of her life wishing she were somewhere else and anyone else?